寂寞不可怕，因为寂寞不会伤害表面上的我；但，我害怕孤单。孤单可以使我觉得我被孤立了，而且它令我觉得我心里的那道墙即时被刮花了。
一个人无论怎样寂寞，他总可以找些事情来消遣那寂寞的时段。可是，孤单却是另一回事了。当一个人独处于一方，脑袋总会胡思乱想，想些有的没的。也许会回忆些当年的美好时段，或许是辛酸的，更加是心痛的噩梦。 所以你说，孤单恐怖吗？
我的笑容，一半是逞强笑出来的，另一半才是出自于真心的。真的不晓得什么时候才能摆脱这难忘的回忆，因为它实在是令人太心疼了
寂寞，我不怕；但我更加怕孤单。
Tuesday, December 20, 2011
Saturday, December 3, 2011
人不可貌相
人不可貌相。。是我看错了你吗？
我们没有任何关系了，为何你还要欺骗我？我一再的相信你不是这样的人，为什么你就不可以证明给我看，你不是我看错的那个人？
是我开始不认识你了，是我渐渐地不了解你了，因为你的转变而让我觉得，人其实是可以那么的自私，可以为了自己的私欲而做出平时不会做的事。平日你对我的好，你对我的温柔体贴，却换来一句“陌生人”，你是在敷衍我吗？
是我的报应吗？是上天对我的惩罚吗？我以前对待你，很差，很刻薄你吗？我的关心，现在成为你的憎恨和厌倦，我对你的一切，你的一句“不想浪费我们的时间”，就对我们的一切，毁了，彻彻底底地完了
我的心很痛，很痛。。此刻，我对你真的很失望，透底。
我们没有任何关系了，为何你还要欺骗我？我一再的相信你不是这样的人，为什么你就不可以证明给我看，你不是我看错的那个人？
是我开始不认识你了，是我渐渐地不了解你了，因为你的转变而让我觉得，人其实是可以那么的自私，可以为了自己的私欲而做出平时不会做的事。平日你对我的好，你对我的温柔体贴，却换来一句“陌生人”，你是在敷衍我吗？
是我的报应吗？是上天对我的惩罚吗？我以前对待你，很差，很刻薄你吗？我的关心，现在成为你的憎恨和厌倦，我对你的一切，你的一句“不想浪费我们的时间”，就对我们的一切，毁了，彻彻底底地完了
我的心很痛，很痛。。此刻，我对你真的很失望，透底。
Monday, November 28, 2011
A new life, without YOU in my life anymore
25-11-2011, 10.18pm. Is over. Our relationship finally has come to the end. No beyond retrieval, no regret, none at all.
Together, we had undergone our happy sad sweat hard moment in our 4.5years. You did really bring me lots of memories. I'm happy to know you in my life, I'm glad to be with you in my life too. Although you're not the best among the best,. although you're always the dumppy between us, and although you're the one that ever care me the most in my life! Thanks for giving me your everything, my love on you is not wasted, I knew it.
Now, your love on me ady gone. Your cares on me are still here, but this is no longer a boygirlfriend's care, it has been changed into family's care. You said I've become a family of you that you can't share all of your story with me, because you don't want to have a family member as your beloved girlfriend. You hope we still can be friend in future cz you don't want to loss a friend like me in your life.
Perhaps,.. I can do that in future, an understandable friend of you, the one that always care and worry you who you'll never know there is a stupid one that willing to do this for you.
I'm that blind in love. People always say me is the fierce one that control my partner, but somehow, they do not know that I'm the weakest one in a relationship. They'll never know how stupid am I when falling in a relationship. Or I can say that, girl is always the one that suffer losses in relationship.
I believe I can make myself better, and have a wonderful life in future. I still need courage to walk on the route, I do not know the route I choose is correct or wrong, but I know, I still have people that love me the most - papa mami sisters brother and friends. I know one day, there is sure a person that love me the most, cherish me the most. I'll wait, and look for him, my MR RIGHT.
Together, we had undergone our happy sad sweat hard moment in our 4.5years. You did really bring me lots of memories. I'm happy to know you in my life, I'm glad to be with you in my life too. Although you're not the best among the best,. although you're always the dumppy between us, and although you're the one that ever care me the most in my life! Thanks for giving me your everything, my love on you is not wasted, I knew it.
Now, your love on me ady gone. Your cares on me are still here, but this is no longer a boygirlfriend's care, it has been changed into family's care. You said I've become a family of you that you can't share all of your story with me, because you don't want to have a family member as your beloved girlfriend. You hope we still can be friend in future cz you don't want to loss a friend like me in your life.
Perhaps,.. I can do that in future, an understandable friend of you, the one that always care and worry you who you'll never know there is a stupid one that willing to do this for you.
I'm that blind in love. People always say me is the fierce one that control my partner, but somehow, they do not know that I'm the weakest one in a relationship. They'll never know how stupid am I when falling in a relationship. Or I can say that, girl is always the one that suffer losses in relationship.
I believe I can make myself better, and have a wonderful life in future. I still need courage to walk on the route, I do not know the route I choose is correct or wrong, but I know, I still have people that love me the most - papa mami sisters brother and friends. I know one day, there is sure a person that love me the most, cherish me the most. I'll wait, and look for him, my MR RIGHT.
Saturday, November 19, 2011
Saturday, October 29, 2011
想回到过去
回想起我们的过去，一切是多么的开心和幸福。我们的每一刻每一秒，虽然是那么的短暂，可是那包含着我们的每一点，每一滴的幸福，。我不奢望什么，我也不贪婪些什么，我只想要这一些幸福可以一直延续下去，到未来。
过去的我们，是多么的天真。每个人都很羡慕我有一个那么要好的伴侣，因为他的温柔体贴，他的不舍和体谅，都让我感觉很温暖。我们的一切，感觉像是龙卷风，来得太快，去也很快。情绪病是每个人都有的，我也一样。我的情绪病是在我朋友中公认的，情绪上下像坐过山车，飞驰不断，我对他的爱就直陷入深渊，一发不可收拾。这是命运的安排，还是上天对我的惩罚，好让我面对着每一些的挫折和失败？当一切来得太顺利时，总会有一些恶魔来折磨和捣蛋那些稍为迈向成功的人，就像我一样。我们的一起，像是吃甜糖，甜得太腻就会觉得反感，淡得无味就失去所有的一切一切。当问题出现了，双方都有责任去把问题解决，因为一个巴掌是打不响的。
我们从没问题，变成很多很多的问题，但没方法解决。我对这一切都很痛苦，也很疑惑，因为我发现我开始不了解他到底在想什么，也不知道要用什么方法去解决我和他的问题。我越是把问题提出，他越是回避问题。或许他有他的想法去解决我们的问题，可是这让我对他产生了更大的疑惑和痛楚。
我相信他，因为我很爱他。我不想要离开他，也不想要放弃他。我好希望我们可以有着幸福快乐的未来，要相信我们的感觉是对的。亲爱的上帝，请您让我们一同实现我们的愿望吧，因为我相信，只要我们都秉持着坚定的信任，我们一定可以看到和走到我们的未来。所以，拜托。。拜托。。
过去的我们，是多么的天真。每个人都很羡慕我有一个那么要好的伴侣，因为他的温柔体贴，他的不舍和体谅，都让我感觉很温暖。我们的一切，感觉像是龙卷风，来得太快，去也很快。情绪病是每个人都有的，我也一样。我的情绪病是在我朋友中公认的，情绪上下像坐过山车，飞驰不断，我对他的爱就直陷入深渊，一发不可收拾。这是命运的安排，还是上天对我的惩罚，好让我面对着每一些的挫折和失败？当一切来得太顺利时，总会有一些恶魔来折磨和捣蛋那些稍为迈向成功的人，就像我一样。我们的一起，像是吃甜糖，甜得太腻就会觉得反感，淡得无味就失去所有的一切一切。当问题出现了，双方都有责任去把问题解决，因为一个巴掌是打不响的。
我们从没问题，变成很多很多的问题，但没方法解决。我对这一切都很痛苦，也很疑惑，因为我发现我开始不了解他到底在想什么，也不知道要用什么方法去解决我和他的问题。我越是把问题提出，他越是回避问题。或许他有他的想法去解决我们的问题，可是这让我对他产生了更大的疑惑和痛楚。
我相信他，因为我很爱他。我不想要离开他，也不想要放弃他。我好希望我们可以有着幸福快乐的未来，要相信我们的感觉是对的。亲爱的上帝，请您让我们一同实现我们的愿望吧，因为我相信，只要我们都秉持着坚定的信任，我们一定可以看到和走到我们的未来。所以，拜托。。拜托。。
Wednesday, October 26, 2011
A new stage in my life
17th October 2011, I had my 1st job in Kuala Lumpur, as a Product Consultant in an IT Company. This was a new starting point to me as I needed to have a new and different life in a different place by myself. I would have my new friends here, new colleagues in a new company, new home, new ''family members'' perhaps.., and a new of myself too. I'm not sure whether this is a challenging task for me, but everything seems like going smooth right now.
Time flies.. Today is the 2nd week of my working day. Sometimes I feel like, do I really like this job? Or I just simply find a job as long as I can earn experience and spend my ''leisure time'' before I get my desire job? Some day, I must get the answer accurately, before I regret what I'd been done in the previous time.
Working is exactly a recycle life. Wake up early in the morning and go for work until evening, back home for dinner and perhaps have a nice sleep, then start again the next morning with the same things. Yea, this may be the truth for everyone, but somehow I feel like I want to color up my life with rainbow colors, or maybe the most sharpest and colorful one... So, I need courage and give me strength to do that..!
Another 97days, is our reunion day, between me and him. :) He'll be coming and working in KL, and hopefully we won't be staying separately like far for few states.. When the day is coming, again my life is changed to another and different stage because I'm no longer alone at here. I can be the independent one, but I'm the loneliness person, and the important is, I scared to be lonely. Hopefully everything can be in the right order like what we had planned before, and reach to the final ends.
A new stage in my life.. I'll appreciate it and cherish everything I own now. God bless.. ;)
Time flies.. Today is the 2nd week of my working day. Sometimes I feel like, do I really like this job? Or I just simply find a job as long as I can earn experience and spend my ''leisure time'' before I get my desire job? Some day, I must get the answer accurately, before I regret what I'd been done in the previous time.
Working is exactly a recycle life. Wake up early in the morning and go for work until evening, back home for dinner and perhaps have a nice sleep, then start again the next morning with the same things. Yea, this may be the truth for everyone, but somehow I feel like I want to color up my life with rainbow colors, or maybe the most sharpest and colorful one... So, I need courage and give me strength to do that..!
Another 97days, is our reunion day, between me and him. :) He'll be coming and working in KL, and hopefully we won't be staying separately like far for few states.. When the day is coming, again my life is changed to another and different stage because I'm no longer alone at here. I can be the independent one, but I'm the loneliness person, and the important is, I scared to be lonely. Hopefully everything can be in the right order like what we had planned before, and reach to the final ends.
A new stage in my life.. I'll appreciate it and cherish everything I own now. God bless.. ;)
Monday, October 10, 2011
WestLife Concert 7/10/2011
First time watch concert with you, plus this is Westlife Concert, I could only use one word to describe: awesome!! And it is so touching, so memorable for me and you. Although we didn't have a good interaction on that night, but I promise, I'll let us have a wonderful one in future. =]
This was a musical show more than a concert. I was so enjoy and feeling warm with them., Shane Mark Kian and Nicky, they were so nice and cute!! All the time they kept on record the concert and all was so high in mood!! Love their songs a lot, every songs in every albums.. =DD
Honey, although we'd a "less wonderful and peaceful" night, but I'll always remember the 1st concert night that we'd, some more they are the group that you like the most! ^^V However, there was a small blemish during the concert... We didn't take photos or videos during the concert, and also "our own photos". No worries, because I won't forget the moment we've been together in the concert and for sure will keep all these memories in my deepest heart, and lock it up tightly,. Haha ;D
This was a musical show more than a concert. I was so enjoy and feeling warm with them., Shane Mark Kian and Nicky, they were so nice and cute!! All the time they kept on record the concert and all was so high in mood!! Love their songs a lot, every songs in every albums.. =DD
Honey, although we'd a "less wonderful and peaceful" night, but I'll always remember the 1st concert night that we'd, some more they are the group that you like the most! ^^V However, there was a small blemish during the concert... We didn't take photos or videos during the concert, and also "our own photos". No worries, because I won't forget the moment we've been together in the concert and for sure will keep all these memories in my deepest heart, and lock it up tightly,. Haha ;D
Thursday, July 7, 2011
Singapore Days (Week 2)
Day 8 (Wednesday), 2011-7-6
Today I went to an interview at Orchard Road, a saloon named Kimrobinson. This is a 5star saloon and the most expensive saloon in Singapore. I'd applied for Customer Service Representative at there, but the salary given is quite low, and under my expectation. Mami and Papa hoped me to work there as to gain experience as well as to get the job than better to stay at home wait for nothing, but my heart tells me that, I don't want to stay at here, I want to back to Malaysia. No one understand me, I cry every night before get into sleep, eyes swollen in the next morning, heart pain when hear Mami and Dear's phone call, cz I miss them so much, I want to back home..
Should I accept the job? Or keep hunting in KL? I try to persuade myself that working in Singapore is to earn money for our future, Dear told me that he will come Singapore after finish study,. If he really does, then is worthy for my sacrifice, but I need to endure in these 6months long when staying at here. Again, tears drop and heart pain night. :'(
Day 9 (Thursday), 2011-7-7
Morning again, I was wondering which place to stay for my future, either KL or Singapore. Yea, all my family members hoped me to stay in Singapore, 1st reason was the safety issue. Singapore is much more safety than KL, added their transportation is much more easier to get and reach to the destination. And the next reason is staying problem. I can stay at aunt's house if work at Singapore, but... staying at people's house is not so convenient as this might bring trouble to them *if i did something wrong or xxx?*
Day 10(Friday), 2011-7-8
It's Friday!! And finally I got a time to meet up with Felix. Hmmm.... He's a nice person, and a talkative man! But, can feel that he's a hot tempered guy too~ Met up for an hour and lunch with him, balik rumah again~ =) Got an interview on next Tuesday at Cheras and Shah Alam, so I'd a chance to back home, my own home!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Bought ticket with Yiyi *back on tomorrow morning!*, dinner with Fatty Jun and Skinny Hong with Yiyi at Thai Restaurant,. So satisfied with the dinner... Thanks Yiyi!!!!!
Day 11(Saturday), 2011-7-9
Finally Saturday has come!! And I can back home now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Hurrayyyyyyy ;DDDDD
Today I went to an interview at Orchard Road, a saloon named Kimrobinson. This is a 5star saloon and the most expensive saloon in Singapore. I'd applied for Customer Service Representative at there, but the salary given is quite low, and under my expectation. Mami and Papa hoped me to work there as to gain experience as well as to get the job than better to stay at home wait for nothing, but my heart tells me that, I don't want to stay at here, I want to back to Malaysia. No one understand me, I cry every night before get into sleep, eyes swollen in the next morning, heart pain when hear Mami and Dear's phone call, cz I miss them so much, I want to back home..
Should I accept the job? Or keep hunting in KL? I try to persuade myself that working in Singapore is to earn money for our future, Dear told me that he will come Singapore after finish study,. If he really does, then is worthy for my sacrifice, but I need to endure in these 6months long when staying at here. Again, tears drop and heart pain night. :'(
Day 9 (Thursday), 2011-7-7
Morning again, I was wondering which place to stay for my future, either KL or Singapore. Yea, all my family members hoped me to stay in Singapore, 1st reason was the safety issue. Singapore is much more safety than KL, added their transportation is much more easier to get and reach to the destination. And the next reason is staying problem. I can stay at aunt's house if work at Singapore, but... staying at people's house is not so convenient as this might bring trouble to them *if i did something wrong or xxx?*
Day 10(Friday), 2011-7-8
It's Friday!! And finally I got a time to meet up with Felix. Hmmm.... He's a nice person, and a talkative man! But, can feel that he's a hot tempered guy too~ Met up for an hour and lunch with him, balik rumah again~ =) Got an interview on next Tuesday at Cheras and Shah Alam, so I'd a chance to back home, my own home!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Bought ticket with Yiyi *back on tomorrow morning!*, dinner with Fatty Jun and Skinny Hong with Yiyi at Thai Restaurant,. So satisfied with the dinner... Thanks Yiyi!!!!!
Day 11(Saturday), 2011-7-9
Finally Saturday has come!! And I can back home now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Hurrayyyyyyy ;DDDDD
Friday, July 1, 2011
Singapore Days (Week 1)
Pre day (Tuesday), 2011-6-28, 10.30pm
Took Transnational bus to Singapore. 6hours journey cut to 4hours, you can think how fast was the driver driving, I didn't know the speed but the way he drove really driving me crazy... all the way he drove, fast and no break at all, made me so sick + dizzy.. Finally reached Singapore at 2.45am, reached home at 3.30am, chatted with Fion (chubby cousin) until 5.30am and at last, had a nice sleep till 10am.
Day-1 (Wednesday), 2011-6-29
10am woke up d... What to do at home since my head and mind were so heavy and blurred, some more waiting for my relative (Yvonne) to come over and bring me out... Waited from 11am to 4pm, finally she reached to my house. And whole afternoon stayed at home do nothing, grrrrr....... Makan time again, cooked instant noodle as tea time, and finally we went out to Aljunied to meet up with aunt after she finished working at 5.30pm. After dinner, we went to Elken building to attend their home party night... Sleepy night when attending the night, aiyoo... Finally, 10.30pm we got the Mrt and back home and reached at 11.45pm. Damn tired day~
Day-2 (Thursday), 2011-6-30
Stayed at home a whole day, with online and tv time... I still prefer Astro dramas, as all the dramas sounds are originated from the drama itself, not like Singapore one, all Hong Kong and Taiwan dramas converted to Chinese. Wonder, if next time I stay in Singapore, I'll feel hardly to watch the original HK dramas le, oh nooOOOOO!!!!!!!!! Its too bad!
Day-3 (Friday), 2011-7-1
Today, suppose is my interview day, in two companies. However, I had rejected them cz I didn't want to waste my time on the job that I'll not going to work in future. And finally I'd met up with Cherries - my Uni's friend, since today is her day off too! We met at 2.30pm, at Orchard mall. I felt so happy cz finally I saw one familiar friend at here! And we walked and chatted until we found a place to have tea. We talked all about jobs in Singapore and how to survive here if want to save more money for future. Envy for her cz she d found a good job as she loved her job, and also happy for her cz at last she can stay near with her loved one. Really wish her get a wonderful and happy life for now and future.
Chatted for 4hours, we had decided to back home because we're tired enough and nothing to shop at all [no money to buy the one we like!]. And the important is, my right foot damn tired and numb, especially my 2nd and 3rd toes! Then again I met Yiyi at Causeway Point, which is a shopping mall at Woodlands Mrt station. I needed to buy a flat so much!!!!! Unfortunately, the whole Causeway Point had no suitable flat or sandal for me, its too bad again!! [actually I saw one at Charles & Keith, but it is so expensive! $39.90 means RM90!! I feel unworthy to buy a sandal with this price, although it is nice and fit me a lot]...
Day-4 (Saturday), 2011-7-2
Since no suitable sandal or flat for me, Yiyi had decided to bring me over Johor Bahru (JB) to find sandal again. We "moh soh" until 3pm only started to go out. We 6persons - Yiyi, Yvonne (my another Yiyi), Fion, Fatty Jun, Thinny Hong, and I.. Hunted for 2hours, finally I found a new arrival flat at Vincci, and I bought it! This one really surprised me cz I had never bought a shoe or a sandal at Vincci before. Love shape flower on the front of the shoe., nice.. =) Same too, Yiyi bought a heel there, and so as Yvonne at Vern's. Luckily we had bought Fion a hairband before I bought my shoe, or else she'll sure angry and jealous cz she gets nothing when shopping~ 5pm something, stomach hungry like hell *cz we d bought things that we wanted, that's why satisfied and finally felt hungry*, and at last we went to a restaurant outside the mall for our dinner. Chili crab, teppan tofu, fried fan shu miao, fried chicken wings, ribs king, and a seaweed soup. After had a delicious dinner [although the crab meats were not so fresh], again we back to the mall *ops!! forgot to tell you all that the mall called as City Square* and had some drink at Starbucks~> this was due to celebrate Yiyi's Chinese birthday. Yvonne treated us a Caramel and Mocha with Chocolate Tuxedo cheese cake. I love the cake taste, it was not so sweet and greasy, feel comfortable for the taste and ingredients. Next time can bring Mami and have a try~ However, Yiyi still preferred Singapore's Starbucks because the drinks were not nice enough compared with Singapore's one. Again ended another day in Singapore~~~
Day-5 (Sunday), 2011-7-3
Morning..... Today we have no place to go since nothing to buy and all is well~ Hahaz.. After had our brunch, again Yiyi, 3 monkeys and I went to Sheng Siong Supermarket to buy groceries. Finished up everything and kept all in refrigerator, I had a nap because the day forced me to sleep!! Muahahahah =DD What to do? Sleep is the only thing when we have nothing to do at home~ Then, 5pm out to exercise at Marsailing garden, the opposite garden of our house area. Its more than 2weeks I'd stopped my exercise, until my leg muscle pain and numb. After dinner time, its online hour again~ Today is just passed like this again.
Day-6 (Monday), 2011-7-4
Morning Babes... Today is their Youth Day at Singapore, therefore the kids do not have schooling day. Early in the morning, they were so 'bersemangat' to go for exercise. Since my leg muscle still haven't recover, my job was to supervise them in the park. Right in the afternoon, Fatty Jun cooked porridge to us. Gosh?! His porridge was chocolate in colour, he put 'vegetable source' in the porridge, potatoes, carrot in small pieces, green peas and sweet corns. I tell you, I'd never ate this kind of porridge before, and he added so much of white pepper powder in the whole pot of porridge! So hot and spicy~ Alamak..... He really needs to improve his cooking skill, or else next time her girlfriend will suffer for his cooking! Hahaz... But, man who knows cooking really looks charming! ;) Dinner time almost here. Again Fatty Jun cooked dinner for us: vegetable, baked nuggets, and egg soups. Hmm, this time his cooking was not bad, 不错不错!!
Night time was tv time, Dear hasn't back home from work until 12am. Really miss him a lot... Hope to meet him soon *perhaps this holiday at Singapore able to tighten our relationship like previous time, that close*.. Good night.
Day-7 (Tuesday), 2011-7-5
Everyone asks me to stay in Singapore to work, but my heart is struggling, I can't leave my family and Dear *especially*, I know whether I choose KL or Singapore, the result will be the same, but the only different is communication. At KL, Dear and I still able to communicate everyday through phone, like the past schooling days; but this is opposite if in Singapore, I can't call him always, and same for him, even in online chatting also will be lesser as Dear is not so preferred to online chat with me especially there is 3rd person in his room. Dear still has 1year to finish up his study, if he really willing to come over Singapore and work here, then I can endure my life at here, and wait for his coming. Just I do not know a thing is, our relationship can be stay longer or not. Since we're separated for so far, when the time he starts study, he will back to the northernmost in Malaysia, UUM, and I will be in the Southernmost place- Singapore. Can our relationship long lasting and have a perfection at the end? I do know, and I am really struggling now..
Took Transnational bus to Singapore. 6hours journey cut to 4hours, you can think how fast was the driver driving, I didn't know the speed but the way he drove really driving me crazy... all the way he drove, fast and no break at all, made me so sick + dizzy.. Finally reached Singapore at 2.45am, reached home at 3.30am, chatted with Fion (chubby cousin) until 5.30am and at last, had a nice sleep till 10am.
Day-1 (Wednesday), 2011-6-29
10am woke up d... What to do at home since my head and mind were so heavy and blurred, some more waiting for my relative (Yvonne) to come over and bring me out... Waited from 11am to 4pm, finally she reached to my house. And whole afternoon stayed at home do nothing, grrrrr....... Makan time again, cooked instant noodle as tea time, and finally we went out to Aljunied to meet up with aunt after she finished working at 5.30pm. After dinner, we went to Elken building to attend their home party night... Sleepy night when attending the night, aiyoo... Finally, 10.30pm we got the Mrt and back home and reached at 11.45pm. Damn tired day~
Day-2 (Thursday), 2011-6-30
Stayed at home a whole day, with online and tv time... I still prefer Astro dramas, as all the dramas sounds are originated from the drama itself, not like Singapore one, all Hong Kong and Taiwan dramas converted to Chinese. Wonder, if next time I stay in Singapore, I'll feel hardly to watch the original HK dramas le, oh nooOOOOO!!!!!!!!! Its too bad!
Day-3 (Friday), 2011-7-1
Today, suppose is my interview day, in two companies. However, I had rejected them cz I didn't want to waste my time on the job that I'll not going to work in future. And finally I'd met up with Cherries - my Uni's friend, since today is her day off too! We met at 2.30pm, at Orchard mall. I felt so happy cz finally I saw one familiar friend at here! And we walked and chatted until we found a place to have tea. We talked all about jobs in Singapore and how to survive here if want to save more money for future. Envy for her cz she d found a good job as she loved her job, and also happy for her cz at last she can stay near with her loved one. Really wish her get a wonderful and happy life for now and future.
Chatted for 4hours, we had decided to back home because we're tired enough and nothing to shop at all [no money to buy the one we like!]. And the important is, my right foot damn tired and numb, especially my 2nd and 3rd toes! Then again I met Yiyi at Causeway Point, which is a shopping mall at Woodlands Mrt station. I needed to buy a flat so much!!!!! Unfortunately, the whole Causeway Point had no suitable flat or sandal for me, its too bad again!! [actually I saw one at Charles & Keith, but it is so expensive! $39.90 means RM90!! I feel unworthy to buy a sandal with this price, although it is nice and fit me a lot]...
Day-4 (Saturday), 2011-7-2
Since no suitable sandal or flat for me, Yiyi had decided to bring me over Johor Bahru (JB) to find sandal again. We "moh soh" until 3pm only started to go out. We 6persons - Yiyi, Yvonne (my another Yiyi), Fion, Fatty Jun, Thinny Hong, and I.. Hunted for 2hours, finally I found a new arrival flat at Vincci, and I bought it! This one really surprised me cz I had never bought a shoe or a sandal at Vincci before. Love shape flower on the front of the shoe., nice.. =) Same too, Yiyi bought a heel there, and so as Yvonne at Vern's. Luckily we had bought Fion a hairband before I bought my shoe, or else she'll sure angry and jealous cz she gets nothing when shopping~ 5pm something, stomach hungry like hell *cz we d bought things that we wanted, that's why satisfied and finally felt hungry*, and at last we went to a restaurant outside the mall for our dinner. Chili crab, teppan tofu, fried fan shu miao, fried chicken wings, ribs king, and a seaweed soup. After had a delicious dinner [although the crab meats were not so fresh], again we back to the mall *ops!! forgot to tell you all that the mall called as City Square* and had some drink at Starbucks~> this was due to celebrate Yiyi's Chinese birthday. Yvonne treated us a Caramel and Mocha with Chocolate Tuxedo cheese cake. I love the cake taste, it was not so sweet and greasy, feel comfortable for the taste and ingredients. Next time can bring Mami and have a try~ However, Yiyi still preferred Singapore's Starbucks because the drinks were not nice enough compared with Singapore's one. Again ended another day in Singapore~~~
Day-5 (Sunday), 2011-7-3
Morning..... Today we have no place to go since nothing to buy and all is well~ Hahaz.. After had our brunch, again Yiyi, 3 monkeys and I went to Sheng Siong Supermarket to buy groceries. Finished up everything and kept all in refrigerator, I had a nap because the day forced me to sleep!! Muahahahah =DD What to do? Sleep is the only thing when we have nothing to do at home~ Then, 5pm out to exercise at Marsailing garden, the opposite garden of our house area. Its more than 2weeks I'd stopped my exercise, until my leg muscle pain and numb. After dinner time, its online hour again~ Today is just passed like this again.
Day-6 (Monday), 2011-7-4
Morning Babes... Today is their Youth Day at Singapore, therefore the kids do not have schooling day. Early in the morning, they were so 'bersemangat' to go for exercise. Since my leg muscle still haven't recover, my job was to supervise them in the park. Right in the afternoon, Fatty Jun cooked porridge to us. Gosh?! His porridge was chocolate in colour, he put 'vegetable source' in the porridge, potatoes, carrot in small pieces, green peas and sweet corns. I tell you, I'd never ate this kind of porridge before, and he added so much of white pepper powder in the whole pot of porridge! So hot and spicy~ Alamak..... He really needs to improve his cooking skill, or else next time her girlfriend will suffer for his cooking! Hahaz... But, man who knows cooking really looks charming! ;) Dinner time almost here. Again Fatty Jun cooked dinner for us: vegetable, baked nuggets, and egg soups. Hmm, this time his cooking was not bad, 不错不错!!
Night time was tv time, Dear hasn't back home from work until 12am. Really miss him a lot... Hope to meet him soon *perhaps this holiday at Singapore able to tighten our relationship like previous time, that close*.. Good night.
Day-7 (Tuesday), 2011-7-5
Everyone asks me to stay in Singapore to work, but my heart is struggling, I can't leave my family and Dear *especially*, I know whether I choose KL or Singapore, the result will be the same, but the only different is communication. At KL, Dear and I still able to communicate everyday through phone, like the past schooling days; but this is opposite if in Singapore, I can't call him always, and same for him, even in online chatting also will be lesser as Dear is not so preferred to online chat with me especially there is 3rd person in his room. Dear still has 1year to finish up his study, if he really willing to come over Singapore and work here, then I can endure my life at here, and wait for his coming. Just I do not know a thing is, our relationship can be stay longer or not. Since we're separated for so far, when the time he starts study, he will back to the northernmost in Malaysia, UUM, and I will be in the Southernmost place- Singapore. Can our relationship long lasting and have a perfection at the end? I do know, and I am really struggling now..
Monday, June 20, 2011
Displeasure day
Whenever I'm unhappy and moody, I'll find you., but end up you make me more unhappy and sad,. If a relationship is going to the edge and end soon, both couple need to put effort on the relationship if they still want to maintain their relation. However, one person's effort is not enough to tighten up the gap, the more they drag the time, the big the problem will become.
As I said before, a couple need to be honest to each other so that their relationship can be in a longer mode.
I'm happy because when I get hurt, you'll still stay beside and accompany me, worry and care me like ever,. I feel warm in my deepest heart although my wound is pain., I feel like, this wound is worth to exchange with your care.
As I said before, a couple need to be honest to each other so that their relationship can be in a longer mode.
I'm happy because when I get hurt, you'll still stay beside and accompany me, worry and care me like ever,. I feel warm in my deepest heart although my wound is pain., I feel like, this wound is worth to exchange with your care.
Saturday, April 9, 2011
Relationship --> ?
What is meant by love relationship?
I scared of losing something important in my life, but I couldn't stop myself from thinking it.
I want to have a secured love relationship, unsecured relationship will only make me afraid and panic, cz I don't want to loss you..
What if I make a wrong decision, will you forgive me?
What if I make a decision which hurt the both of us, will you feel that I'm very stupid?
Love, if is hard to maintain for long, the best way is to cut off the thread, rather than suffer from pain...
Agree?
I scared of losing something important in my life, but I couldn't stop myself from thinking it.
I want to have a secured love relationship, unsecured relationship will only make me afraid and panic, cz I don't want to loss you..
What if I make a wrong decision, will you forgive me?
What if I make a decision which hurt the both of us, will you feel that I'm very stupid?
Love, if is hard to maintain for long, the best way is to cut off the thread, rather than suffer from pain...
Agree?
Sunday, March 13, 2011
Your BdaY Celebration, my Dear =)
11/3/2011, Friday - My first time heading to University Utara Malaysia (UUM), and my mission was to give him a birthday surprise, {Edward See}.. Up at 7.15am, boarded at 9.00am, reached Alor Setar at 1.30pm, took Mara Liner to UUM at 2.00pm, and finally reached the uni at 3.30pm. What a long journey right? But I was happy all the way in the bus, because that time I was going to meet my dear soon!! With a great surprise of me! XD
When I reached the hostel, my friend [ah Fai] came to pick me and he started to phone all his friends who "pakat" with us in order to present Dear birthday "gift"! I hided in the mart and waited him to come and give him a shock, that time my whole body was shaking because I felt guilty of cheating him for a week! And finally he came into the mart, and we were talking each other on the phone, *damn funny look when I looked at him*, Dear kept asking me where was I that time, but I was too scared until my leg became softer like couldn't walk, Haha!! His friend asked him to buy him something, and that's why he came into the mart and started to find the thing he wanted to buy. We're like playing hide-and-seek, when he turned to one side, I hided to another side, until my leg couldn't stand anymore, I jumped in front of him and say 'Surprise"!! Haha... What a stupid way I used to surprise him~ You know, the first word he said was "?Why are you here? How you come? When you back? Where you stay?" Oh my gosh... I felt so funny cz my Dear asked me such questions, with stupid and funny looking, but I was very very very happy and excited that time, cause I knew that he's happy and felt surprise of my visit.. ;)
Then, we walked out from the mart and his friends brought him his birthday cake, Chocolate Cake if not mistaken. And as usual, the candles were lighted and started to wish for birthday. After a period of photo shooting, the cake was cut and we all started to eat it. Funny my Dear, love his stupid look much =P
After that, all his friends played around and planned for night's program. Finally, they successfully rented 3 cars and we moved on to see the "Rainbow House" at Kuala Perlis. I forgot how long time we took the way to there, and we arrived to the place. The Rainbow House was now staying by a Chinese family, but we still walked in to take photos! I meant just only the compound of the house.. The cars were only able to park outside cause all the road was mud and we needed to walk in by our own. That was a peaceful place cause no noise and dirt in the environment. At last, 14 of us walked to the house.. Unfortunately, the house we saw was slightly different than the one we watched in the movie, the real one was a bit.., old. However, we still captured a lot of photos there, all of us. ^^
Finished from photo shooting, again we moved on to have our dinner at... Seafood Restaurant. Undoubtedly, the food at there were nice and delicious, thanks for bringing me to have such a tasty dinner with you all, I love u guys!
12/3/2011, Saturday - Today, nobody wanted to go out, may be they wanted to give me and Dear some private time before I leave him tomorrow.. Unfortunately again, I didn't bring my passport which was kept by Mami all the time.. If not, Dear and his friends would bring me to Hatyai for fun.. aikz.. So, we could only go to Jitra for movie time. We watched "World Invasion: Battle Los Angeles" and had pizza as our brunch. Reached home at 6.00pm, slept till 8.00pm and took shower then out for collecting my bus ticket from Dear's friend - Kok Thong. Lastly, tea with them before back to inn. That night, I was so upset, I felt like, Dear was unhappy, because he felt like he was cheated by everyone, I knew he doesn't like people to cheat especially me, but now, my surprise was a cheat for him. I couldn't stand with it, and tears dropped like cats and dogs, hz.. Luckily, he knew and understood how I thought after I told him all and didn't angry on me. Yeah, my plan was successful because he totally doesn't know and couldn't sense of the cheat, but he really felt happy of my visit. I truly felt proud of it,. ;))
13/3/2011, Sunday - Up at 7.45am, waited for Mara Liner again at 8.40am, but the bus arrived at 9.30am. Finally, I needed to leave him and back to my place again. I felt upset cause of my leaving, but this couldn't change the fact as we both are still undergraduate student, and we need to study till the end of our study day in our uni. The bus left the uni, I left Dear again. In the bus, I thought of many memories between me and Dear, and I smiled sweetly, in heart. I loved him, that's why I couldn't leave him from my mind, so as him, I believed. ^v^
When I reached the hostel, my friend [ah Fai] came to pick me and he started to phone all his friends who "pakat" with us in order to present Dear birthday "gift"! I hided in the mart and waited him to come and give him a shock, that time my whole body was shaking because I felt guilty of cheating him for a week! And finally he came into the mart, and we were talking each other on the phone, *damn funny look when I looked at him*, Dear kept asking me where was I that time, but I was too scared until my leg became softer like couldn't walk, Haha!! His friend asked him to buy him something, and that's why he came into the mart and started to find the thing he wanted to buy. We're like playing hide-and-seek, when he turned to one side, I hided to another side, until my leg couldn't stand anymore, I jumped in front of him and say 'Surprise"!! Haha... What a stupid way I used to surprise him~ You know, the first word he said was "?Why are you here? How you come? When you back? Where you stay?" Oh my gosh... I felt so funny cz my Dear asked me such questions, with stupid and funny looking, but I was very very very happy and excited that time, cause I knew that he's happy and felt surprise of my visit.. ;)
Then, we walked out from the mart and his friends brought him his birthday cake, Chocolate Cake if not mistaken. And as usual, the candles were lighted and started to wish for birthday. After a period of photo shooting, the cake was cut and we all started to eat it. Funny my Dear, love his stupid look much =P
After that, all his friends played around and planned for night's program. Finally, they successfully rented 3 cars and we moved on to see the "Rainbow House" at Kuala Perlis. I forgot how long time we took the way to there, and we arrived to the place. The Rainbow House was now staying by a Chinese family, but we still walked in to take photos! I meant just only the compound of the house.. The cars were only able to park outside cause all the road was mud and we needed to walk in by our own. That was a peaceful place cause no noise and dirt in the environment. At last, 14 of us walked to the house.. Unfortunately, the house we saw was slightly different than the one we watched in the movie, the real one was a bit.., old. However, we still captured a lot of photos there, all of us. ^^
Finished from photo shooting, again we moved on to have our dinner at... Seafood Restaurant. Undoubtedly, the food at there were nice and delicious, thanks for bringing me to have such a tasty dinner with you all, I love u guys!
12/3/2011, Saturday - Today, nobody wanted to go out, may be they wanted to give me and Dear some private time before I leave him tomorrow.. Unfortunately again, I didn't bring my passport which was kept by Mami all the time.. If not, Dear and his friends would bring me to Hatyai for fun.. aikz.. So, we could only go to Jitra for movie time. We watched "World Invasion: Battle Los Angeles" and had pizza as our brunch. Reached home at 6.00pm, slept till 8.00pm and took shower then out for collecting my bus ticket from Dear's friend - Kok Thong. Lastly, tea with them before back to inn. That night, I was so upset, I felt like, Dear was unhappy, because he felt like he was cheated by everyone, I knew he doesn't like people to cheat especially me, but now, my surprise was a cheat for him. I couldn't stand with it, and tears dropped like cats and dogs, hz.. Luckily, he knew and understood how I thought after I told him all and didn't angry on me. Yeah, my plan was successful because he totally doesn't know and couldn't sense of the cheat, but he really felt happy of my visit. I truly felt proud of it,. ;))
13/3/2011, Sunday - Up at 7.45am, waited for Mara Liner again at 8.40am, but the bus arrived at 9.30am. Finally, I needed to leave him and back to my place again. I felt upset cause of my leaving, but this couldn't change the fact as we both are still undergraduate student, and we need to study till the end of our study day in our uni. The bus left the uni, I left Dear again. In the bus, I thought of many memories between me and Dear, and I smiled sweetly, in heart. I loved him, that's why I couldn't leave him from my mind, so as him, I believed. ^v^
Sunday, February 27, 2011
No trust, no Love
A couple who lost their trust on each other, slowly, will loss their love in the relationship.
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